Pillow Fort

[melodysangel]

I need to scream.

Damn health. Sugar crashes = dietitian to tell me to get bloodwork. That day I make an appointment for next week. That same day I have a really weird episode int he shower. I pull a muscle in my arm, see stars, black out and get seriously nautios. Cant get up, cant move arm.

Doctor tells me to get bloodwork NAO, the next day. Today I find out my iron is low. They want me on supplements. It doesn't compute with me (was on them, nasty nasty GI tract sideeffects). So now nurse has to talk to doctor to see what they can shove down my throat that will work.

If nothing else comes up, I might end up with a transfusion. Last case scenario but I..cannot take those supplements. I cant. im crippled now..on them ill be confined to the bathroom on the floor unable to move.


Funny thing is my sugar levels were fine at the time of the draw. I don't get it..I was right ready to pass out (from what a typical crash would be). Now im wondering if iron can mimic lightheadedness/fainting/nausea/getting overheated when your temp is normal.

I can move my arm again but its really sore. Think of a really nasty charliehorse that will not let go for a few hours. Best piece of all? I needed help. Im in the shower. Mom doesn't want to get up...because her stupid jays are picking first draft pick (baseball). If I scream for help, its serious ><

[scorpiomilo]

Can I just.. ugh I swear even these odd times haven't gotten my danged mother off my back. She keeps trolling dating websites because she's determined for me to be in a relationship, if she could I'm sure she'd hire a matchmaker and or try to get me in some danged arranged marriage I have no idea what's so bad in her mind about me being single

[Angel_of_Music]

I am SO LIVID RIGHT NOW!!! And it has nothing to do with work. Monday mom found what seemed like a great deal on a supposed car. She went through with everything, was told the car would be here Thursday. It didn't come, so we figured today. Mom though started looking into certain things and...well folks...needless to say mom and I are both PISSED, but I am LIVID!!! She got scammed. It's one thing to say you want to sell a car because you need it gone, but to throw in that you're in the military, are going to be deployed soon and just need it gone and add in the 'death' of a family member...THAT IS A LOW BLOW!!! I hope Karma comes back around to bite this people HARD and they regret this. It is SO NOT FAIR to do that in this time. I had had a good day at work and when I checked my phone to see the text from mom, I literally ROARED in anger!! I was so pissed!!

Right now the only thing keeping me from cursing any further is that a friend of ours whom mom's been talking with all afternoon, showed mom a car for sale at an actual dealership and told my mom she'd drive her up there and let her drive the car, but also buy it for her. That has calmed my inner dragon a little, but the rest of said inner dragon is still livid and wanting out.

Just...UUUUUUGGGGHHH!!!!

[Angel_of_Music]

I am getting SO FREAKING TIRED OF THIS ONE FREAKING MANAGER!!!!! He asked me to make sure things were stocked before I left, BUT instead of asking me 15 MINUTES BEFORE THE END OF MY SHIFT.....he freaking asks me AFTER 4!!! He's done this to me before and it's getting freaking annoying!!!! Lets add in that while I was trying to stock, we had orders coming in. Guess who was taking the orders? ME!!! This is because our frosty machine was freaking up and he was taking care of that, so I had to take the orders while still trying to freaking stock!!! I was freaking pissed!!! Still am!!! If he needs me to freaking stock before I leave, he needs to freaking ask me BEFORE the end of my shift!!! I didn't get the frick out of work til freaking 5 and I'm supposed to be done AT 4!!! Yes, the extra hour means extra money, but I'm still freaking pissed that he pulled this crap again!!

[Phoenix Stardancer]

I'mma spend the day crying. I just saw Charley Pride passed away. I loved his music and spent a lot of time listening to it as I grew up as my mom was a fan as well.

[Sanguine_Dragon]

I have no clue how to start this, so I do apologize if this seems disjointed and wordy.

I have always had a very strained relationship with my mom's side of the family. Which, hit me a bit harder since I don't really know anyone on my Dad's side. They are incredibly Christian and have a strangely warped sense of how people should live by it. Despite the strained relationship, I love them so much. I worry about them all the time, and especially during this year, as most of the last few members of that family I have are Elderly. Growing up, it wasn't so bad..with my mom and dad around they usually either ignored me, or just kept me at a distance in the same vein that one would keep distance from poisonous snake. 

However, when dad died, they started treating mom and I a bit differently. We weren't allowed to go into their house, if we were allowed into the house for family dinners, we had to sit in specific chairs and couldn't serve our own food. I would be escorted to the bathroom and escorted back to the family if I had to even wash my hands. It was like they just couldn't trust us or thought we were dirty. I never understood this as we never gave them reason to believe any of this. It was just like one day, they woke up and we became villains in their life.

Eventually, mom wanted me to experience life. I had been caring for both of them since I was 8, and I didn't really get the same experiences that everyone else did. I didn't really have but one friend, and dating had been out of the question. I didn't really understand my peers and their fascination with makeup or anything. We barely had money to worry about keeping our bills paid so makeup seemed like such a waste to me, not to mention no one wanted to be a friend to the poor kid. But, I didn't care. My parents were everything to me and I was an only child. So, I would come home, help with chores and work on learning to cook and make sure everyone had medicine and were cared for. So mom decided she wanted me to go off and live. I went up to Ohio with some friends and lived there for four years and learned a lot about life, becoming a Viking Re-enactor, and just enjoying a bit of actual freedom. Then mom got really sick and I couldn't get home in time.

After she passed, this same family turned on me fully. They blamed me for my mom's death, my dad's death, I honestly think they would swear I had the Hope Diamond if it crossed their mind. They offered me no assistance or warmth when I finally made my way back home, and made sure to attempt to rule over my life. Eventually, it came out that I was Pagan due to a slip-up by my friend and they seemed to bear down harder on their critique and coldness due to me, and once I married Phoenix and came out as Trans...they outright disowned me. I figured that was it until today.

I was woken up by a loud car horn outside my apartment, and pulled myself together to go yell at the person disturbing the peace for my neighbors. Imagine my surprise when it was my aunt and my cousin. I cautiously walked to the car, ever ready for some sort of vitriol or blame game to be thrown at me...instead, she tossed me something. A box of chocolate covered cherries and a card. She looked at me, smiled a genuine smile, and genuinely wished me a Merry Christmas...then told me to get inside before I got sick. I cried for a bit, since Chocolate covered cherries were the gift my mom would get every year from everyone. It was her absolute favorite and mine too..so that alone was an overwhelming gift. Then I opened the card. I ignored the dead-naming they tended to do, and accepted it as part of never accepting me as who I am...and then I read the card. It was actually a heart-warming letter of love. They didn't apologize for anything, but genuinely gave me words of warmth and love and I felt like they were my family again. Then Phoenix pointed out there was 30.00 in the card...and I felt a strange sort of anger. They barely have money to make ends meet and I just wanted to yell at them for giving me money when they had so little themselves.

She called me a few minutes ago, wishing all of us (not just me this time) a Merry Christmas...genuinely caring about us and our well being, and it was like even for a moment that I had my family back for Christmas. If even for a small moment this year, I had my family again for Christmas....and I'm incredibly happy and yet scared it'll all go away again. 

I know this is a heavy topic, but I just wanted to share this whole thing. If anyone has any advice, I would love to hear it. Again, I apologize for the wordy and disjointed post.

[Phoenix Stardancer]

I did not share this when it happened as I needed time, but our oldest cat Sierra finally passed away. She was about 20 years old and passed peacefully as she slept. She was also surrounded by all who cared for her deeply.

[Minkey55]

*flops into the pillows*
Well, today was extremely stressful.
I work retail and got into work this morning to open the store at 7 am.
Got in and noticed one of the ladies hadn't come in.
Had to get another colleague from another department to help open up as I can't be alone to run 4 sections (tills, self-scan, kiosk and Runner) as we thought she was just late.
Got to 7.30 and one of the managers got me her number to call her.
Turns out she had texted our department manager to say she wouldn't be in as she was feeling sick.
The department manager didn't come in until 10 so we didn't know.
Found out that she didn't even get the text until 8.30.
That only left 1 till, me and the kiosk until 10 when my mother came into work. ( she wasn't even on the schedule so small blessing)
Called the manager for help and ....nothing.
Only got some help when I bypassed the department manager and went straight to the store manager.
Things got busy again and suddenly 6 of my 10 self-scan suddenly decided to crash.
Not just simple fix a full restart taking at least 5 minutes per one.
So I'm trying to fix them while also watching the remaining ones that are open but at least i get it done.
12 the next lot of people came in and i can get people's breaks covered, including mine.
One lad came in and he looked a little pale but said he was fine.
Flash forward to 2 pm and he has to dash to the loo and vanishes for at least 20 minutes.
I had to send the security guard to see if he was ok.
Turns out he had been sick before coming in to work and he let slip that his wife has had a bout of gastroenteritis.
A HIGHLY Infectious stomach issue. So we had to send him home and deep clean the till he used.
Guess how that job fell too... me. As the manager was "too busy"
It got to 4 pm (at the end of my shift) and i just walked out.
So i escaped on my way home and narrowly missed being in a 3 car pile-up cause one bloke couldn't wait for traffic to move.
Thank god my other half is a fantastic driver and managed to swerve us out of the way by like 2 inches.
So I'm now home having a gin and lime trying to decompress.
It's now getting to a point that the stress is getting to me and i have a call booked with my doctor tomorrow.

Thanks for reading i just needed to vent it all out.
*hugs the nearest person and snuggles into the pillows*

[Sweetintoxikation]

*tightly hugs Minkey*

You got this sweetie. Have the gin; snuggle with the pillows; kiss your lovely for being so awesome and remember: you got this. But for tonight relax. <3

[aholland]

Slips in. Takes a breath, must type without the emotional reaction. Since there isn't a Pillow Fort 2021 I figure I will share this here.

I just found out that on May 26th my brother (He is 47) is going in for heart surgery. I guess they are putting in a stint, but if it doesn't look like it will work they will do a triple Bypass while they already have him open. This all happened suddenly and My mom and I are reeling. He is trying to make light of it. Making jokes and such. But he has made a video living will.

I just don't know what to do. I can't even be there for him. I can't even go up and see him. And I have to keep my tears away so I don't upset my stepdaughter who would only get worked up and become even more difficult to care for. She Just wouldn't be able to deal with it.

And I don't want to even think of the possibility of him not making it through this. That is my big brother. He at 7 years old told a judge he wanted me as his little sister and signed my adoption papers. He has been there my whole life. I just.... deep breath, i have to believe he will be ok.

So, I needed to get it out and say it all here. I didn't want it to carry into the fun. I want to curl up in my bed and wallow but I will not. I have to be strong. I have to be a mom and act like all is fine. But inside I am not. Sorry to dump this here.

[Angel_of_Music]

*hugs Aholland* I'm sorry to hear that Aholland. It's always nerve wracking when someone goes in for that. My dad had to go in to have two stints put in a couple years ago. He and I were out the one day, having a great time and when he said 'now to get serious for a moment', I was like 'oh gods....' and he started to tell me what was going on with him and that he was going in to have the stints put in. Yea I was worried and such because...he's my dad. He made it out just fine and is doing great. Last year he had another scare and had to have another stint put in, but again he's doing fine.

Your brother will be okay Aholland. The doctors will do everything they can. Just breath and have faith. I'll be sending good vibes that day okay? It'll be okay *hugs tight*

[aholland]

So My brother's surgery went well they put in one stent large Caliber. Made him stay for 6 hours and he is now home. So I am relieved. Been keyed up and antsy all day. I am now exhausted.

[melodysangel]

*curls in a ball*

first thing is first. We are ok.

So I was out with my mom yesterday trying to find stuff for our patio. Brandon was off helping his dad and Brandon's sister was Gizmo-sitting. We all gather to my parents for dinner and I see the neighbour out watering the flowers as I was going to get into the car. I take gizmo over and talk to him for 5 minutes...hes an experienced dog trainer and I wanted to ask about agility. I also wanted to ask if I could take some flower cuttings in the fall.

5 minutes.

Five minutes.

So theres a major intersection ont he way home that goes up the mountain. Down the mountain near the intersection the station is pretty much right there.

Around that intersection (ontop of the mountain) we see 2 police cars rush towards us. Ok, no big deal, maybe there was an accident on the road. But after they passed 2 more came. Then 2 more....then 2 more. By this time we are around the corner from home, stopped at a red light infront of the plaza. I watch as 2 cop cars pull into the plaza, thinking they want to cut through the red light. Maybe theres an accident on the link (stretch of sort of hiway that is near by).

The car stops near the gas station. We start to move and theres a ton of flashing. As we turn the corner I can see atleast 15 cop cars, a paramedic and a police officer in the process of taping off the entire plaza (its a big one!).

Everyone was gathered behind a local and popular authentic indian restaurant parking lot--the restaurant is infront of the gas station and shares the same space.

Theres a condo right behind the plaza.

Brandon rushes home and takes the car right into the garage--which he usually doesnt do. After we get in he checks the nest cam.

You can very clearly hear 8 gunshots that is caught on the camera.

Checking the timestamp---we were...you guessed it---5 minutes away from the location as it happened.

That plaza is walking distance from home. Im beside myself thinking we would have been caught up in that if I didnt stop to talk to the neighbour, or i could have been walking Gizmo if we hadnt had gone out at all.

Im still out of it. Brandon was talking to the neighbours and the rumours had spread..some thinking it was firecrackers and some hearing that it was gunshot.

Found out maybe 1/2 an hour after posting in chat that 3 people were gunned down. One is dead. One is in critical condition. The other had injuries but not life threatening. We found out that police think its targeted shortly after, as well as they think it was 2 gunners--who may have fled to the condo behind the plaza.

I just....this shit doesnt happen here! Not that close, and not within a window where I very much could have been there!

*goes to try to hug me a gizmo*

[wolfrysk]

Oh MA how awful -hugs-

[Phoenix Stardancer]

*hugs MA* Sang and I can offer kitty cuddles as well