Pillow Fort

[Moophles]

Oh gosh AOM...Im so sorry for your loss. *sends many hugs and much love* we are all here for you.

[Angel_of_Music]

Just wanted to give everyone a little update so I don't clog the Heb thread. I've been doing okay since losing my mom. May 4th my Dad, his friend Cheryleen, my Uncle Doug(my mom's brother), Aunt Amy and cousins Jake and Kaitlyn...we all met up at the funeral home and put into motion the workings for mom. She was cremated and the urn I picked out is in the shape of a lighthouse. I saw it in the catalog that Wendell, who has been a very dear friend of hours for many years and worked with both my parents at some point way back, had shown me and i knew it was perfect for mom. I showed it to everyone and they all agreed and there was even one on display in the one case. It's a good size, but it's perfect. It's, as I said, a lighthouse set on a rocky outcrop with a little cottage, water below. I also got a paw print necklace to hold some of the ashes. I got the paw print because of the dog show things mom and I did. We worked on the obituary, which went through three revisions before we settled on the final product. After that was said and done, my Uncle Doug, two cousins and I went into the next room to see mom. I was able to leave some things with mom that were going to be cremated with her. We told some stories and laughed, trying to remember mom. Uncle Doug asked me some questions and I answered them. He mainly had wanted to know what had happened since the last time they had talked. I asked what was the last thing she had told him and I filled in the blanks.

After we were done there, we said our goodbyes, I got a nice 'gift' from them and I went back inside as dad and Cheryleen were still talking with Wendell. It was another almost ten minutes before we finally left. I had though admitted to Wendell that I had wanted no one except him to handle the arrangements, that he was the one and only on my list and he was really touched by that. It was true though, I wanted him to handle the arrangements and no one else. After we left the funeral home, Dad and Cheryleen took me to a nice little bbq place. It was really good. We then went back to Cheryleen's place and we played detective with mom's computer to see if there was anything helpful. Nope...there was nothing. I looked through her emails...which thankfully she hadn't signed out of, so I didn't have to reset the password...though i'll have to do that at some point in time. He then asked about documents and I said 'mom wasn't really computer literate to create documents or such'. Which is true! If she wanted to do anything like that, she would have asked me and there was nothing. So, hit a slight road block.

I've managed to pay the electric and cable/internet bills as well as the water/sewer and cell phone. Now once the attorney, who has been helping with the mortgage mess that is left for me and my dad and Cheryleen hired to help with it, has the death certificates, I have to get the help as to how to get the accounts turned over to my name so I can continue to pay them for what little time I have left in the house. Sadly because of the mess with the mortgage company, I can't keep the house. Yes it will hurt to leave it, but it's for the better. My dad still leases the apartment, which is five minutes drive from where he currently is staying at Cheryleen's place, and he has already explained to the landlord what is going on. The guy is totally fine with me staying there. After twenty years, I'll be leaving this house, a house that mom worked so hard to get, a house that mom and I worked so hard to make it a home. I am going to miss certain neighbors, I'm going to miss decorating it for the holidays, I'm going to miss work(yes I have to leave that too) and I'm going to miss having Walmart and Michaels so close. There is a small shopping center near the apartment, so I'll be okay when it comes to getting food and such for myself.

I've been working on sorting/packing mom's things, mainly things that I am going to be keeping. I want to spend at least an hour or two on days I get home from work to do so, at least three hours on Thursdays and maybe 4 hours on Sundays. I want to have my mom's stuff sorted/packed and ready to move hopefully by the 27th so I can move it over to the apartment. I have to figure out what bins are going to be in the attic and which ones in the garage. There's limited space, so I have to keep room for my stuff, which I need to go through and consolidate things. Granted I can keep certain bins in the garage if I want, but I'd probably want to keep most in the attic. I'll figure it out.

I've had people checking up on me and i've been telling them that I'm doing okay. If I keep busy, I'm good. I know at some point I am going to have a bit of a break down, but it's part of grief. With where I'm going to be, there's a good size creek that I can go and fish, there's a pool and there's a carousel, so I can go and have some fun. There's also the bike path, so i'll get some use out of my bike a little more at least. It'll take time, but I know I'll be okay

[PookaWitch]

I just received some very scary news. Apparently a huge mass was found on my ovary and they think it's cancer. I'm being rushed off to Barrie to see a gyno cancer specialist and should be having surgery in a day or two.

Initially they thought it was my appendix causing the serious pain, but the cat scan showed otherwise.

So wish me luck.

[springacres]

Oh, no! Wishing you the very best, Pooka!

[wolfrysk]

Thinking of you Pooka and wishing you all the love and luck

[Cryptic]

Oh Pooka, that is such scary news.. Sending you well wishes, I hope everything goes smoothly. ;;

[Phoenix Stardancer]

Luck to you Pooka from Sang and myself. My mom, Teskeria, sends her best wishes as well.

[Angel_of_Music]

Sending good vibes and thoughts Pooka. I'll keep you in my prayers and hope that it's something that is caught real fast <3

[Moonlit_Arcane]

Sending love and good vibes to you, Pooka, that has to be so, so scary. ;_; <3 Fingers crossed that everything goes as smoothly as possible and much luck coming your way!

[jeanstarwind]

That's super scary news, Pooka. Sending positive thoughts and healing vibes your way. Hoping that everything goes well and you have a strong recovery! <3

[PookaWitch]

Update: They were trying to get me into surgery ASAP, but the specialist in Barrie requires me to go to the reach out in Sudbury before they decide if the specialist will do the surgery first, or if I need treatment before that. I could tell that my doctor was disappointed since he worked so very hard to get ahold of the specialist. The tumor is about 2 inches. I should hear from Sudbury in a few days, then if they give the go ahead I'm off on a nearly 5 hour trip to Barrie. Our jeep is dying, so I hope it can make the journey. O.o

Thank you for all of the well wishes. ^_^

[Operetta]

Oh goodness... sorry to hear that. The last thing you want or need right now is further roadblocks. I hope things go smoothly from here on.

[wolfrysk]

Still thinking of you Pooka

[Sanguine_Dragon]

Hoping all is going okay, Pooka!

[PookaWitch]

Thank you again for well wishes.

Waiting is driving me up the wall! The doctors wanted me in surgery by now but things seem to be held up somewhere between them and the surgeon. I'm just counting the hours, waiting for the weekend to be over to hopefully I get a call.

I'm just trying to distract myself at the moment... video games, drawing and RP to try and not to dwell on things too long or I start to lose it. It's the suspense and not knowing... that's the hard part. If I knew the results, one way or another, I could start to process.